Heart Broken
These past few days have created a brokenness in my heart that I have not had for a very long time. I am amazed at how I feel. I have always been able to keep my feelings in check maintaining a calm and quiet demeanor. I feel emotions but it is rare that they can become so overwhelming that I find myself responding to them in such a real way. I know the source of this sadness for it is multilayered. One of my nieces, whom I dearly love, was arrested last year and charged with vehicular manslaughter due to her driving under the influence. I know that this happened but somehow I find it hard to get my mind around this reality. In this accident she killed a patrol officer in the police department. She was completely unaware of what transpired and how this happened. She nearly lost her own life in the physical sense because of injuries she sustained in the accident. Needless to say the entire family has been turned upside down because of this terrible tragedy. None of us can grasp the real extent of the damage done, not only to the officer's family but to our own extended family.
People seem to think that we can go about and do whatever we want because we have rights. I have a right to carry a gun, or drink alcohol, or use drugs. It is my right. My professor in school used to say your rights end where my nose begins. I have to agree with him. He was absolutely correct. We do not have the right to put others in harms way just because we want to do something. There are always going to be consequences to our actions. Throughout the scriptures we read of consequences. Abraham bringing Lot along brought about consequences. Sarah trying to fulfill God's promise of giving she and Abraham a child brought long standing consequences. We simply must understand that what we do is never done in a vacuum. We are touching other people's lives when we do stupid and selfish things. Jacob suffered the consequences of stealing his brother's birthright. He had to flee his homeland to get away from his brother he was bent on revenge for what Jacob did.
I think about the consequences of my niece's actions and my heart is broken. I believe that we have to take responsibility for the actions that we take. We can't just try to lie our way out of what we have done. There is a price to be paid. Realizing this truth has made me extremely cautious about stepping into people's lives without being asked. I know better than to judge the other fellow for what he or she has said or done. I recognize my flaws, my faults and failures, but I know that I serve the loving God who will judge all of my deeds in His own time. For now my heart is filled with sorrow for the loss of my niece and the opportunity she had for her life. God had another plan for her which I do not fully understand but in due time I know that He will reveal that to her if she will only listen for his voice. I cry out for her, for her pain and for the pain and suffering she has put upon all of us who love her and had hoped for a better outcome. I know that she is in God's loving hands and even though some would want her to just disappear, God loves her and He always will. And that my friend is the real truth!
People seem to think that we can go about and do whatever we want because we have rights. I have a right to carry a gun, or drink alcohol, or use drugs. It is my right. My professor in school used to say your rights end where my nose begins. I have to agree with him. He was absolutely correct. We do not have the right to put others in harms way just because we want to do something. There are always going to be consequences to our actions. Throughout the scriptures we read of consequences. Abraham bringing Lot along brought about consequences. Sarah trying to fulfill God's promise of giving she and Abraham a child brought long standing consequences. We simply must understand that what we do is never done in a vacuum. We are touching other people's lives when we do stupid and selfish things. Jacob suffered the consequences of stealing his brother's birthright. He had to flee his homeland to get away from his brother he was bent on revenge for what Jacob did.
I think about the consequences of my niece's actions and my heart is broken. I believe that we have to take responsibility for the actions that we take. We can't just try to lie our way out of what we have done. There is a price to be paid. Realizing this truth has made me extremely cautious about stepping into people's lives without being asked. I know better than to judge the other fellow for what he or she has said or done. I recognize my flaws, my faults and failures, but I know that I serve the loving God who will judge all of my deeds in His own time. For now my heart is filled with sorrow for the loss of my niece and the opportunity she had for her life. God had another plan for her which I do not fully understand but in due time I know that He will reveal that to her if she will only listen for his voice. I cry out for her, for her pain and for the pain and suffering she has put upon all of us who love her and had hoped for a better outcome. I know that she is in God's loving hands and even though some would want her to just disappear, God loves her and He always will. And that my friend is the real truth!
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